The Open is one of those events that makes us all a little crazy. I’m not even registered for the Open, and it’s managing to somehow still make me crazy. While it’s a wonderful platform that provides that little something extra that is all some people need to get their first double-under or PR their max squat clean. For others, it’s like a tornado that, week after week, sweeps us up into it having us overanalyzing our performances, overthinking our game plans, and overreacting to our outcomes when they’re not as magical as we dream them up to be every Thursday night.
Ben’s post-WOD talk to our 8:30 class today was on this:
“Do what you can, with what you have, for where you are.”
I needed to hear this today. I, like many others, had dreamt all night about finishing the handstand push-ups in 19.3 today. And, if this was 5-10 years ago, I would’ve had a fantastic shot of doing just that.
The reality is, I’m not 5-10 years younger. I have grade 4 arthritis in one knee, and tendonitis in the other. I purposely avoid box step ups and any form of lunging because of that. And, I made the decision to not register for the Open because I wanted to take the year to “enjoy” training and avoid the pressure I allow the Open to smother me with.
So, when I fall short of finishing the strict handstand push-ups and feel the wave of disappointment come over me as the clock strikes 10:00, I hung onto every word of this quote like it was medicine.
I did the best I could, with what I was physically able to, at this point in my life with the decisions I made to get me here.
Desiring and expecting anything beyond that is being greedy and short-sighted. My situation is what it is, and the life I got to live that got me into this situation has been full of amazingness. I’ve been super athletic and made great friendships with like-minded people that I would take a bullet for. I’ve done an Ironman and run marathons and squatted lots of weight and jumped on boxes…and, trampolines…and, I’m proud of all of those things. So, yes, my knees hurt…a lot…and, I can’t blow through the DB overhead lunges and box step-ups as fast as I want to so I can hammer through the strict handstand push-ups the way I dreamt it all up last night.
But, for what I have to deal with and where I’m at in my journey, I did hammer through it. And, I should be proud of that.
This was just my own personal experience, but I know I’m not alone. I know everyone has stories similar to this. And, I know we’re all sometimes setting unrealistic expectations. And, I know we’re walking around feeling like failures when we’re not living up to those lofty expectations.
It’s too much. And, we all know that too much of anything is no good.
Stay within yourself. Celebrate your accomplishments. And, don’t look too far behind, or too far ahead.